'When routine bites hard,
'And ambitions are low,
And resentment rides high,
But emotions won't grow,
And we're changing our ways,
Taking different roads.' joy Division


He dumped me on that monday morning. His feelings were swinging between attachment and love ,since a little while. I guess that the most difficult part to accept is his illogical way of doing and telling things. The night before he tells me that he wants to believe in us and leaves me sweet messages and suddently the following day everything seems to be different in his mind. well, i supose there is nothing logical, it's just over. Strangely enough I don't feel as bad as I thought I would, probably because I try to stay the most active possible. I can't leave myself choke neither. He has an unquenchable thirst of life and revival. He needs it to blossom. We both do. I bear him a grudge, for the way he did it, for the past few weeks, for not being that honest. But on the other hand , I do understand the need for a change..